Sometimes I hate being autistic. I hate it. I despise it. I can’t fully express myself in a way that makes sense to other people and I get frustrated and feel like I’m getting talked down to because of it and I fucking hate it. I’m 30. I’m fucking 30. I’m not a child anymore and I don’t have to be treated like one and I just want to be able to be given the chance to express myself and my thoughts without someone thinking I can’t talk or I’m not going to talk because of whatever fucking reason they think.

Ilove being myself and I’m proud of being autistic, but this I hate. This bothers me. This is what upsets me the most.

I hate being nonverbal sometimes. I just want to be able to express myself and I want people to consider what I have to say.